Only a month left until I board the plane to South Africa! It's becoming really hard to focus on school and I can't even begin to imagine the lack of focus I'll have during finals week. We had our last pre-departure meeting on Saturday and I think it was a well needed six hours spent together. I have a really good feeling about all of the people taking this course with me. Everyone seemed to mesh very well and I can tell we are going to have a lot of fun! We all expressed worries and excitements on Saturday that really got me thinking about this experience. Why be nervous or anxious? All the classes I've been taking have been teaching me to step outside of the comfort zone, so why am I fearing it so much? I finally convinced myself not to!
Right now I'm in a state of mind that is allowing me to be completely open minded. The idea of having no growth in the comfort zone and no comfort in the growth zone has been a way that I've wanted to live my life but I always gave myself the excuse that I didn't have opportunities to step outside of the comfort zone. No more excuses for me and definitely NO excuses while I'm in Cape Town. The only worry I currently have about the trip is packing which seems pretty superficial to me. But I really have no idea what to pack and I also have no idea what to buy my host family. I figure that if these are my only current worries I'm in a good place. Two weeks ago I was having nervous break downs every other day and now I've finally realized that there's nothing worth worrying about because this is an opportunity of a lifetime.
My wonderful friend, Anna, just asked me what I'll miss the most while I'm gone. This is a great question. My mom would want me to say that I'll miss her, which I will, but besides people what will I miss? I know I will miss my cell phone the least because I feel like this is what causes much of my lack of attentiveness right now. Having access to texting, Facebook, email, and internet on my phone allows for too many possibilities of being contacted and I feel I rarely have a moment to myself. I think I'll be much more present during my days spent in South Africa for the sole reason that technology will be eliminated from my everyday use.
But...I should probably start studying for my spanish exam that I have tomorrow :( Sorry about the choppy, random thoughts that went into this (very distracted right now)! No more daydreaming for this girl!
Thanks for blogging!
Brittany
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